Tuesday, August 31, 2004

lets try this one more time...

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullah...


this is another attempt insha'Allah.

i've started this post several times...yet erased it each time. Thats kind of the rhythm of my life...i embark on so many tasks, set so many goals, yet at the end of the day, i end up at the same spot.....

sometimes i wonder if a person never progresses, he's never changed, and if hes never changed has he really lived...if each day you're exactly the same person, in exactly the same spot in ur life, what exactly have you accomplished...ur deeds remain the same....and on the day of judgement when you're standing in front of your Lord, what will you tell him was the reason that you were inhibited.....pure lazyness?

but subhan'Allah i think to the barakah that im bestowed with...this barakah comes in the form of individuals whom i look at....and am just in complete and utter awe....these are individuals who subhan'Allah with each and every conversation with them I am reminded of the character of a noble muslim....individuals who are soooo humble and so sincere and devout...........ehh i cant even begin to describe them...but they're my pillars of support at the end of the day, they can make me smile, laugh, and cry all in a moments span...

and now once again im jus sittin back n contemplating..

a couple of months ago maulana kamal blessed us all with the most amazing story...a student asked him, what should one do if they have a friend whos Muslim but isnt necessarily practicing and isnt necessarily changing for the better...after months of trying should one give up...will this muslim hinder their practice....?

And Maulana Kamal (may Allah ta ala bless him and preserve him) paused and when he spoke his voice began to quiver...sitting behind the pardah i had no idea what was going on...but when he spoke i realized exactly what he felt...he told a story about himself about how he was not the most practicing of muslism back in his high school and college days...and how he had this one friend, Shaykh Husain, who was a practicing muslim. He described how throughout that difficult point in his life, Shaykh Husain was his friend, he never abandoned him, but all he did was he was his friend. He showed him what a Muslim is by just being there...and at that maulana kamal was brought to tears...shaykh husain was sitting there with him...and u could jus feel the barakah in the room...everyone in the room was brought to tears....single drops of sadaqah dropped from our faces...we offered Allah ta ala one of the most priceless things we had..our tears..n at that moment many of us realized that we are weak........sooooooooooo weak subhan'Allah......if it were not for the mercy of Allah subhana wa ta ala God knows where we would be...these individuals that Allah subhana wa ta ala blesses us with are a mercy to us...and i cant help but think that way about my posse :) May Allah ta ala grant them ease in this life, and ease on the day where there is no help other then His..ameeeen...


and wit that here was an im from my lil hijabi, as i like to call her :):

"my lil hijabi" (10:51:47 PM): Ya Allaah all praise is to you for giving me, a poor excuse for a muslim,such a wonderful friend who can always make me smile and recieve the hasanah of the Sunnah. Ameen "

see what i mean......make dua for these guys...they sure as heck deserve it :)