pre Ramadan blues...
assalamualaikum wa rahmatullah...I've tried to stop posting non-sensical random thoughts and stuff...but sometimes I just need to get it out. (sorry)
I don't know where to begin, nor do I know where to end. Ramadan is around the corner and each Ramadan I realize how much I need to work on myself...and today I was sitting and contemplating life, and it was one of those moments when I wished a rope would fall down from the sky and would lead me to my Beloved...
and then of course I thought about how I would present myself to Him, subhana wa ta ala...and ofcourse it made me analyze the amount of filth I've accumulated on my heart and my heart sank. This relationship between Allah and His servant is so simple, yet we make it so complex. We say we love Allah, we say we want to see Allah, we say we are IN love with Allah ....but.......
but what? But we're too lazy? But its too hard? But there are so many distractions?
These excuses seem so dumb here on paper (or the computer screen), imagine how stupid they'll sound on the Day of Judgment when you are actually standing there watching the scale tilt to one side....
but..........
I've seen many people in love and subhan'Allah its amazing...everything they do, they do for their beloved. People become selfless and put themselves and their needs second to that of their beloved....
then why is it that we continue to transgress against the source of all good, of all love- when all we want is to be in His presence and to attain His pleasure ...
:(
May Allah subhana wa ta ala allow us to attain His pleasure this Ramadan....
"And make You my one desire, and fill my heart with Your love, and make it resplendent with Your lights. And humble my heart with the power of Your greatness." - Shaykh Abu'l Hasan al-Shadhili
Labels: Personal, Ramadan, Reflection
posted by Iqra Bismi Rabbika @ 2:44 AM
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